Here is a list of things I'm sad about:
- Not being in Cambodia
- Missing people in Cambodia - students, friends, church members
- Missing places in Cambodia - the roads I jogged, the riverside, the church, my apartment
- Missing the communal way of life in Cambodia
- Missing the foods!
- Feeling out of place in America
- Feeling like I don't know myself anymore
- Erin and Ross moving from Waco. Erin was my closest friend in Waco. I'm sad I didn't get to say goodbye, as they moved just before I got back to the States.
- Life group not being the same - without leaders, potentially dispersing
- Church building not looking the same - I feel like I missed a huge chunk of time and life here
- Things at work are different. A lot of people I knew transferred, were fired, or quit.
- Things at the hospital are rough and stressful right now because of the above stated
- Working as a nurse
- Missing the stability of everything and everyone being the same at work
- Missing the house I used to live in and my rooommates and how we did life
- Feeling alone a lot
- Politics
- ISIS, terrorism, the way life seems so casual
- One of my dear friends recently separated from her husband
- Being fragile, human, and having such a difficult time adjusting
- Writing is so hard right now
Much to feel. Much to grieve.